Osho on Witnessing
SITTING WITH YOU EVERY DAY, I AM BECOMING AWARE OF A DARK, HEAVY SPACE INSIDE ME. IT FEELS AS IF IT IS NOT PART OF ME, BUT I KNOW I CARRY IT AROUND WITH ME. WILL IT DISAPPEAR IF I KEEP ON WATCHING, OR DO I NEED TO DO SOMETHING MORE?
the path of meditation brings everyone to the awareness of a dark space within; and simultaneously, the absolute certainty that “I’m not it.” All that is needed of you is just to watch and not to do anything. It seems simple, but it is the most difficult thing in the world, not to do anything. Just remain silent. Let it be there. Just look more closely, be more perceptive, more clear of all its aspects… but as far as doing is concerned, avoid it completely.
Doing, in the sphere of the inner world, is your undoing. Doing is perfectly right in the outside world — it is needed there. You cannot simply watch and things will start happening — you have to make some effort. The inner follows just the opposite law: if you do something you get caught into doing, you lose your purity of awareness; and the purity of awareness has its own tremendous power.
If you can simply sit, without any judgment about the dark space — not thinking of it as bad or evil, or something that has to be dropped… all these thoughts disturb your purity of awareness, and it is the purity of awareness that is going to dispel the darkness. So you have to be absolutely calm and quiet, and just be a watcher on the hills… looking down in the valleys where there is the dwelling place of the darkness.
The darkness will go — will have to go — as your awareness will become more strong, more pure. You will also start feeling that you not only have a dark space within you. Your awareness is not only awareness, it is luminous — it radiates light; and that radiation of light will dispel the darkness on its own accord.
It is not your doing — you cannot take credit for it — it is a universal law of the inner world. You have to simply understand the law and allow it to function without hindering it. Any effort on your part is a hindrance. This is what Lao Tzu has called “action by inaction,” and the Zen people have called “effortless effort.” If you have followed what I have been saying to you, you will understand the beauty of effortless effort, and actionless action.
In the inner world, at your very center, you are absolutely as you should be. Nothing has to be changed there because nothing has ever become distorted, damaged. The innermost core is beyond all corruption. Around it corruption can happen, and has happened. We are surrounded by dark night. But we are not part of it. We are part of the eternal light of existence itself — we just have to come closer and closer to our being. And once we recognize the luminosity, the tremendous force of light to dispel darkness, you have found the very secret of alchemical transformation.
Just avoid doing anything. This is the most difficult part of meditation, but this is where real meditation begins; before it, everything is just a preparation for meditation. All the techniques of meditation are only a preparation for meditation, they are not meditation themselves.
Meditation begins when you understand clearly that doing is an obstruction, and non-doing is the way to allow existence itself to possess you, to transform you, to bring a new life, a new joy, a new birth.
But unfortunately, everywhere around the world only doing is taught; non-doing is condemned as laziness. It is true in the world, non-doing is laziness. But the world outside is not all — not only that it is not all, it is the most insignificant part of the universe. The significant part is within you. Jesus is right when he continues insisting, again and again, that the kingdom of God is within you. It is already there, complete and whole; you have to come closer to it, to feel that this is your true nature, the nature which is a magic. It does miracles to your being. It gives you insight into eternity, it takes away all fear, it takes you beyond mind into the silences of your being — which is the only temple of God there is.
I don’t want my people to be worshippers. I want them to find the god within themselves. While you are worshipping, you are doing a stupid act — you are forcing the god to worship a fiction. Your God in the skies is a lie. You are the reality; and if you want to find the foundation of all that exists, lives, you have just to go within yourself into your own home.
And this going in is not a kind of doing; you simply sit silently and you will find, slowly slowly, you are slipping — perhaps a certain magnetic force is pulling you. Allow yourself, wholeheartedly, to be pulled… don’t hold anything back. You are in the right space from where meditation can begin. You don’t need any other technique than just becoming aware of the dark space that surrounds you; and without any antagonism, without any desire to overcome it — these are by-products. It will happen, but not by your desiring; it will happen simply by your waiting, watching, and being patient.
This is an excerpt from the transcript of a public discourse by Osho in Buddha Hall, Shree Rajneesh Ashram, Pune.
Discourse Series: The Rebel
Chapter title: The purity of awareness
18 June 1987 am in Chuang Tzu Auditorium
Osho has spoken on ‘meditation, awareness, non doing, watcher on the hill’ in many of His discourses. More on the subject can be referred to in the following books/discourses:
- Beyond Enlightenment
- The Dhammapada: The Way of the Buddha, Vol 1, 3, 6
- Dogen, the Zen Master: A Search and a Fulfillment
- From Misery to Enlightenment
- From Unconciousness to Consciousness
- From the False to the Truth
- The Hidden Harmony
- Hsin Hsin Ming: The Book of Nothing
- The Invitation
- Nirvana: The Last Nightmare
- From Death to Deathlessness
- Sufis: The People of the Path, Vol 2
- Be Still and Know