The First Principle 03

Third Discourse from the series of 10 discourses - The First Principle by Osho.
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The pupils of the Tendai school used to study meditation before Zen entered Japan. Four of them who were intimate friends, promised one another to observe seven days of silence.
On the first day all were silent, but when the night came and the oil lamps were growing dim, one of the pupils could not help exclaiming to a servant, “Fix those lamps.“
The second pupil was surprised to hear the first one talk. “We are not supposed to say a word,” he remarked.
“You two are stupid. Why did you talk?” asked the third.
“I am the only one who has not talked,” concluded the fourth.
In the search for the first principle, silence is the door, the only door. And except that, there is no way to approach the first principle. The first principle can be known only when you move to the primordial state of your being. Thinking is secondary. Existence precedes thinking: existence comes first. First you are and then you start thinking. Thinking is secondary. Thinking is a shadow activity, it follows you. It cannot exist without you, but you can exist without it. Through thinking you can know secondary things, not the primary things. The most fundamental is not available to thinking. The most fundamental is available to silence.
Silence means a state of consciousness where no thought interferes.
The first principle is not far away, it is not distant. Never think for a single moment that you are missing it because it is very far away. No, not at all. It is the closest thing to you. It is the obvious thing. It surrounds you. It surrounds you just like the ocean surrounds a fish. You are in it. You are born in it and born out of it. You live in it, you breathe in it, and one day you disappear in it. It is not far away, not that you have to travel to it. It is there. It is already there around you, within and without. It is your very existence, that first principle.
Zen people call it the first principle, other religions call it God. There is no difference. The Zen approach is far better because with the word God, trouble starts. The first principle becomes personified, then you can create an image. You cannot make an image of the first principle, but that’s what all the religions do. They say, “God is the first cause, the uncaused cause, the most fundamental, the substantial, the substratum.” Zen people call it the first principle. It is beautiful to call it the first principle because nothing preceded it. Everything has followed it.
So if you want to have a communion with the first principle, you will have to seek and search for a reality within yourself which is original, which has not been preceded by anything else.
Silence is primordial. Sound exists in silence. Sound comes and goes, silence remains. Sound is like light and silence is like darkness. Darkness remains. Light comes and goes. Light needs some cause to be. Darkness needs no cause. No fuel is needed for darkness, it simply exists without any fuel. It exists as primordial existence. Darkness is eternal, light is momentary. In the morning the sun rises and there is light. By the evening the sun is gone, the light is gone. Don’t think that the darkness comes. Darkness never comes, it is always there. Light comes and goes. You burn a lamp and there is light. You blow out the lamp and the light is gone. Not that darkness comes, darkness is there. Light is accidental, darkness is existential.
Silence is there. You can create sound, you cannot create silence. The moment sound is no longer created there is silence. Thinking is sound, meditation is silence. So all the religions of the world have been searching for and seeking, in one way or another, that silence which has not been preceded by anything else, which is the first.
Now a few things before we analyze this state of silence.
First thing: man is missing this first principle not because he is not a skilled thinker, but because he is; not because he is not a trained logician, but because he is. Thinking creates a screen around you, a screen of smoke, and because of that smoke the obvious is lost. To see the obvious you need clarity, not thinking, not logic. You simply need clarity, you need transparency. Your eyes should be completely empty, naked. Naked of all clothes, naked of all concepts; empty, empty of all thoughts. When the eyes are just empty, you can see the first principle. And not only can you see it as an object outside you, you see it as your own interiority, as your own subjectivity.
In fact, it is thinking that creates the distinction between the subject and the object. It is thinking that creates division. It is thinking that creates a split. It is thinking that makes things separate. Once thinking is dropped, existence is one. It is one unity, it is one orgasmic experience where duality is totally lost. All boundaries lose themselves into each other, merge into each other. Everything is joined to everything else. The smallest leaf of grass is joined to the greatest star. And then there is nothing high, nothing low, nothing good, nothing bad because all is joined together. The greatest saint is joined to the greatest sinner, they are not separate.
Nothing is separate. With the disappearance of thinking, schizophrenia disappears, this existential schizophrenia of dividing everything: this is man, this is woman; this is good, this is bad; this is beautiful, this is ugly; this is mine, this is thine. All distinctions create neuroses. Man is mad because he thinks too much and he goes on missing the obvious. God is very obvious.
I have heard about a great philosopher…

He married a beautiful girl many years his junior. After a while he began to be torn by doubts as to her faithfulness.
Natural for a philosopher to be torn by doubts. A philosopher lives in doubts, doubt is his trade. He doubts and he goes on doubting. Through doubt he creates questions and then answers, and through doubt he makes more questions out of the answers. His whole life is a procession of doubts. Naturally, “…he began to be torn by doubts as to her faithfulness.”
So he hired a private detective to watch her while he left on a trip. On his return he called the detective.
“Out with it, out with it” shouted the philosopher. “I can take it. It is the element of doubt that is driving me crazy.”
“It looks bad,” said the detective. “As soon as you left the house a handsome fellow called for your wife. I followed them to a night club. They had four or five drinks and then danced, and very close. Then they went back to their table and held hands. Finally they took a cab back to your house. The lights were on and I saw them walk into the bedroom and embrace. Then the light went out and I could not see any more.”
“What did I tell you?” shouted the philosopher. “That damned element of doubt.”

Now, even the obvious – “That damned element of doubt.” Even the obvious is not obvious to a philosopher. The greater the philosopher the more doubts he has. He has doubts about everything. He doubts even his own existence, which in fact cannot be doubted. How can you doubt your own existence? Even to doubt, you are needed to be there. The doubt cannot exist in the air. The doubt cannot exist without you. The doubt can exist only if you are there, but philosophers have been doubting even their own existence: “Who knows whether we are or we are not?”
Doubt is the only outcome of thinking. Nonthinking gives you trust, nonthinking gives you faith, nonthinking brings you closer to reality, face-to-face with reality. So the first thing to be understood: thinking is not a way to the first principle. Not through philosophizing will you arrive at the first principle, because philosophy is secondary. You can know secondary things through the secondary. To know the primary, you will have to achieve the primary within yourself. You can know only that which you are.
If you live in thinking, you will be able to know only secondary things. You will be able to know the shadow world, what Hindus call the world of maya. Through the mind you can know only the world of maya, the shadow world, the world of illusions. You will be surprised. In Sanskrit we have two terms. One is vidya. Vidya means knowledge. Another is avidya. Avidya means non-knowledge. And you will be surprised: in Sanskrit, science is called avidya – “non-knowledge.” Science is called avidya. Why? Science knows more than anything else, but in Sanskrit they call science avidya. Why? Because science knows only the shadow world, knows the secondary, the nonessential. Knows the object, misses the subject. Knows the body, misses the soul. Knows the world, misses God. Knows the secondary.
To know the primary you will have to become primary. You will have to fall into that wavelength where the primary pulsates: that silence. That is the state of no-mind. No-mind preceded your mind.
A child is born. He comes without any mind whatever, he simply exists. His existence is pure, unhampered by any thought, unhindered by any cloud. Look into the eyes of a child. They are so innocent; they are so transparent, so crystal clear. From where does this clarity come? This clarity comes from no thought. The child still has not learned how to think, how to accumulate thoughts. He looks, but he cannot classify. If he looks at the trees, he cannot say they are trees, he cannot say they are green, he cannot say they are beautiful. He sees the trees, but no classification, no category. He has no language yet to be clouded with. He simply sees. Color is there, but he cannot say it is color. Green is there, but he cannot say it is green. Everything is purely clear, but he cannot label it. Hence the innocence of the eyes.
A man of understanding again attains the same eyes. He again becomes a child, as far as the clarity is concerned. Jesus is right when he says, “Become like small children, only then will you be able to enter my Kingdom of God.” He is not saying become foolish like children, he is not saying become childish, he is not saying learn to have a tantrum again. He is not saying that a child is the last stage. No, he is saying simply one thing. He is not saying become a child, he is saying become like a child. How can you become a child again? But you can become like a child, if you can drop thinking. If this cloak of thinking is dropped and you become nude again, you will have the same clarity.
It happens sometimes through drugs. Not a very good way to attain it, very dangerous, very costly, and illusory, but it happens. Hence the appeal of drugs down the ages. Drugs are not new in the world, even in the Vedas they talk about soma. Soma seems to be one of the most powerful drugs ever discovered by man. It must be something like LSD. Aldous Huxley has said that in the future, when the ultimate drug will be known, we will call it soma. From the Vedas, the ancientmost book in the world, to Timothy Leary, man has always been attracted by drugs – alcohol, marijuana, opium. Why this attraction? All the moralists have been against it and all the puritans have been against it and all the governments have tried to curb and control, but it seems beyond any government to control it. What has been the cause of it? It gives something. It gives a glimpse into the innocent mind of the child again.
Through chemical impact, the mind becomes loosened for a few moments or a few hours. Under the impact of the drug your thinking slips. You start looking into reality without thinking; again the world is as colorful as it is for the child, again in a small pebble you can see the greatest diamond. Ordinary grass looks so extraordinary, an ordinary flower looks so tremendously beautiful, an ordinary human face looks so divine. Not that anything has changed. The whole world is the same. Something has changed in you, and that too only temporarily. Through the forceful drug your mind has slipped down. You don’t have the mask, you can see into things with clarity. That is the appeal of the drugs down the ages.
And unless meditation becomes available to millions of people, drugs cannot be prevented. Drugs are dangerous because they can destroy your body’s equilibrium, they can destroy your nature, they can destroy your inner chemistry. You have a very delicate chemistry. Those strong drugs can destroy your rhythm. More and more drugs will be needed and you will become addicted, and less and less will be the experience. By and by, the mind will learn how to cope with the drugs, and then even under the drug you will not attain the state of innocence. Then you will need even stronger drugs. So this is not a way.
The mind can be put aside very easily. There is no need to depend on anything chemical, on anything artificial. There is a natural possibility to get out of the mind because we were born without minds. Deep down we are still no-minds. The mind is only on the periphery. That’s why I say it is just a cloak, a dress that you are wearing. You can slip out of it.
And one moment of slipping out of it will reveal to you a totally different world, the world of the first principle.
So the real fight in the future is going to be between meditation and drugs. In fact, that has always been the case. The real fight is between drugs and meditation, either drugs or meditation.
So it is not coincidental that when you start meditating, by and by the pull of drugs becomes less and less. If it is not becoming less and less, then know well you are not meditating yet, because when you know the higher, the lower is dropped automatically.
But one thing has to be understood. Drugs do something. They undo something in you. They help you to get out of the mind. They give you courage to look into reality without thinking. For a moment the curtain slips, and suddenly you are aware that the world has a splendor it had never had it before. You had passed through the same street and you had looked through the same trees and at the same stars and the same people, and today now everything suddenly is so luminous and everybody is so beautiful and everybody is afire with life, with love. A saint – one who has attained – lives in that state continuously without any effort.
You were born as a no-mind. Let this sink into your heart as deeply as possible because through that, a door opens. If you were born as a no-mind, then the mind is just a social product. It is nothing natural, it is cultivated. It has been put together on top of you. Deep down you are still free, you can get out of it. One can never get out of nature, but one can get out of the artificial any moment one decides to.
Existence precedes thinking. So existence is not a state of mind, it is a state beyond. To be is the way to know the fundamental, not to think. Science means thinking, philosophy means thinking, theology means thinking. Religion does not mean thinking. The religious approach is a nonthinking approach. It is more intimate, it brings you closer to reality. It drops all that hinders, it unblocks you; you start flowing into life. You don’t think that you are separate, looking. You don’t think that you are a watcher, aloof, distant. You meet, mingle, and merge into reality.
And there is a different kind of knowing. It cannot be called knowledge. It is more like love, less like knowledge. It is so intimate that the word knowledge is not sufficient to express it. The word love is more adequate, more expressive.
In the history of human consciousness, the first thing that evolved was magic. Magic was a combination of science and religion. Magic had something of the mind and something of no-mind. Then out of magic grew philosophy. Then out of philosophy grew science. Magic was both no-mind and mind, philosophy was only mind. And then mind plus experimentation became science. Religion is a state of no-mind.
Religion and science are the two approaches to reality. Science approaches through the secondary, religion goes direct. Science is an indirect approach, religion is an immediate approach. Science goes round and round. Religion simply penetrates to the heart of reality.
A few more things. Thinking can only think about the known, it can chew the already chewed. Thinking can never be original. How can you think about the unknown? Whatever you can manage to think will belong to the known. You can think only because you know. At the most, thinking can create new combinations. You can think about a horse who flies in the sky, who is made of gold, but nothing is new. You know birds who fly in the sky, you know gold, you know horses; you combine the three together. At the most, thinking can imagine new things, but it cannot know the unknown. The unknown remains beyond it. So thinking goes in a circle, goes on knowing the known again and again and again. It goes on chewing the chewed one. Thinking is never original.
And the first principle means to come upon reality originally, radically. To come upon reality without any mediator. To come upon reality as if you are the first person to exist and you come upon reality. That is liberating. That very newness of it liberates.
And when you come to know reality directly, it is never reduced to the known. The mystery remains. In fact, it becomes a deeper mystery than ever. The more you know, the more you feel that you don’t know. The more you know, the less you feel you know. The more you know, the vaster is the mystery of it. Religion is mysticism, religion is magic because religion is a no-mind approach.
Thinking can think only about the known, it is repetitive. Philosophy is repetitive. You can go into the philosophy books, into the history of philosophy, and you will see the same thing being repeated again and again – new phraseology, new words, new terms, new definitions, but nothing fundamentally different. From Thales to Bertrand Russell you can go on, but you will find the same thing being repeated again and again. The wheel moving, the same spokes come to the top again and again.
Science can experiment only with the objective; experimentation is possible only with the objective. You cannot experiment with the experimenter himself, there is no way. The subjective reality remains outside science. Einstein may know much about matter, but he does not know anything about himself. Newton may know much about gravitation, but he does not know who he is. One goes on accumulating knowledge about the objective world, and one remains in deep darkness within one’s own self. One’s own light is not yet there, and one goes on groping, experimenting.
Science can experiment only with the objective, philosophy can think only about the known. And reality is beyond both. Reality is unknown – not only unknown, but unknowable – and reality contains the subjective element. So the very methodology of philosophy and science prohibits coming to the fundamental, to the first principle. To come to the fundamental you will have to find another door, a door other than science and philosophy. That door is religion.
Religion can be reduced to one word, and that word is meditation, or call it silence. To be in such a silence that you are almost not, there is no noise within you, the stillness is absolute. Only in that stillness does something stir, only in that stillness do you start hearing the still, small voice of the first principle, call it God or call it soul. Only then does life call forth life. Only then does the source call forth the source. Only then are you close to reality, hand in hand with the fundamental. And that is the search, that is what we are seeking. And without knowing it, without realizing it, there is going to be no fulfillment.
The last thing, then we enter this small parable. When thinking disappears you are left with the first principle. It has always been there; you were not there just because of your thinking. Now you are also there, two presences meet. Ordinarily you are absent, you are somewhere else. You are lost in your thoughts. When there is no thought you are herenow, then there is no way to go from herenow. Thought functions as a bridge to go away from yourself. The moment a thought has come in, you are already far away from yourself. When there is no thought, where can you go, how can you go? When there is no thought you have to be in the present. Thought can take you to the past, thought can take you to the future. No-thought brings you to the present. And only the present is. This moment is all there is.
When you are herenow, absolutely herenow, how can you miss the real, how can you miss existence? When thinking disappears you are left with the first principle.
But when I say “when thinking disappears,” I am not saying “when you fall asleep,” because in deep sleep, thinking disappears. In the East we have divided human consciousness into four phases. The first phase we call waking, jagrat. Waking means “consciousness plus thinking”; you are conscious, but your mind is crowded with thoughts. The second state we have called dreaming, swapna. The second state means “unconsciousness plus thinking”; you fall asleep, but the thinking continues, so there is dreaming. Dreaming is a way of thinking in sleep and thinking is a way of dreaming while awake. Thinking and dreaming are not two separate things. Dreaming is only thinking in a very primitive language, the language of images. Then the third state we call sushupti: sleep, deep sleep, dreamless deep sleep. The third state is “unconsciousness minus thinking.” You are unconscious. You don’t know where you are, who you are, all consciousness has disappeared, you are at rest. And with the consciousness, thinking has disappeared, dreaming too.
These three are ordinary states, waking, dreaming, sleeping. We all know these three. The fourth is the state of meditation. The fourth is called samadhi, turiya. It means “consciousness minus thinking.”
So four stages: consciousness plus thinking is waking, consciousness minus thinking is samadhi, unconsciousness plus thinking is dreaming, unconsciousness minus thinking is sleep.
So samadhi has something similar to waking and something similar to sleep, hence Patanjali has defined samadhi as “waking sleep,” sleep and yet not sleep. Sleep in the sense that there are no thoughts now, no dreams. And not sleep in the sense that you are perfectly aware, that the light of your awareness is there. That you are conscious, that you know that there is no knowledge now, that you are aware that all thinking has disappeared. That you are aware that now there is no dream lurking in your field of consciousness. That you are absolutely zero, shunyata.
This is the state that the East has been trying to achieve. The West has been too involved with science, hence it has missed religion. The East’s involvement is with samadhi, hence it has missed science.
These four states can be thought of in some other ways also. Consciousness plus thinking means waking. Science is a waking activity, so is philosophy, so is theology. Second, dreaming: unconsciousness plus thinking. That is what art is, poetry, painting, music. It is a dream activity, so it is not just accidental that we call the poets dreamers, that we call the artists dreamers, that we don’t trust them much; they are not reliable, they cannot be guides to reality. We enjoy them, it is fun, but we cannot accept them as guides to reality – they are not. They live in fantasy. They dream while awake. Their eyes are full of dreams. So waking is science, philosophy, theology, logic. And art, all kinds of art, is dream activity.
Unconsciousness minus thinking means sleep. Of course all activity ceases in sleep, so nothing is born out of sleep, no science, no art.
Consciousness minus thinking is samadhi. Samadhi gives birth to religion. When Jesus attained samadhi, Christianity was born. When Nanak attained samadhi, Sikhism was born. When Buddha attained samadhi, Buddhism was born. Religion is born out of samadhi, the fourth state. What is samadhi? If you can stop your thinking and yet remain alert and don’t fall asleep… Difficult, arduous, one of the most difficult things, almost impossible. It is easy to be awake and thinking, it is easy not to think and fall asleep, but to remain awake and not think is the most difficult thing because it is not part of evolution. It is a revolution. It is not given by nature automatically. You have to attain it.
That is the task man has to solve. That is the challenge given to man, and very few have accepted that challenge. And only those who have accepted it, only they are man. Others are man only for the name’s sake. We exist as potential man, not as actual man. It is our potentiality. We can become a buddha or a christ, but it has not happened yet. We are just seeds. That’s our misery because a seed can never be satisfied unless it becomes a tree and blooms. A seed will remain miserable because there is a feeling deep down, “I am not yet that which I am meant to be, my destiny is not fulfilled.”
Have you not observed this in you? If you had not observed it, you would not be here. You are here only because you feel something is missing. You are here only because you continuously feel that something has to happen and it is not happening, that something is just there by the corner and yet you cannot grasp it – seems to be not very far away, yet seems to be beyond reach. The tree is not very far away from the seed. If the seed finds the right soil, falls into the soil, relaxes, surrenders to the soil, dissolves into the soil, dies into the soil, then the tree is not very far away. In the right season the seed will sprout, a tender plant will be born and the seed will be able to see the light.
Only when the seed has become a plant will it be able to feel the wind and the ecstasy that the wind is. Be able to feel the sunrays and the ecstasy that the sun brings. Be able to live and be able to accept the challenges and start growing. Come storm, come wind, come rains, and the small, tender plant will become stronger and stronger. Every challenge will give it strength and integration. And one day there will be a great tree whispering to the skies, it will bloom and the fragrance will be released to the winds in all directions. Then there will be jubilation.
When Jesus says again and again to his children, to his disciples, “Rejoice,” what he is saying is true because he has become a tree and he has bloomed. But his disciples must have looked here and there, they must have thought, “What does he mean? Why does he go on saying again and again, ‘Rejoice’?” They are seeds, how can they rejoice?
When I say to you “Celebrate,” you start thinking, “For what? Why? What have we got to celebrate?” You cannot celebrate because celebration is possible only when you bloom. I know it. But I go on saying, “Celebrate.” And Jesus knows it and he goes on saying, “Rejoice.” In fact, he wants to create such a thirst in you to know what this rejoicing is, that out of that thirst you start seeking and searching for the right soil.
To find a right master is to find the right soil because only through the master will you be able to dissolve, only through the master will you be able to surrender. A seed needs to surrender. A seed has to die, only then is there a new life born out of it. Death makes it possible. Death is tremendously beautiful. It makes it possible that a man can be new, a man can be reborn.
Samadhi is celebration, samadhi is rejoicing. Samadhi is your gratitude toward God, your thanksgiving.
How can you thank God right now? You have nothing to thank him for. You can complain, you cannot thank him. So your prayers are more of complaints, less of thanks. You cannot say, “Thank you.” How can you? For what? In fact, you are very angry with God. Why has he given birth to you? Why has he created so much misery? Why has he put you in such anguish and turmoil? Why in the first place? What wrong have you done? If suddenly you come across God you will jump upon him. That’s why he goes on hiding. You will kill him. You will say, “What have you been doing? For what are we suffering? What wrong have we done? Why did you make us in the first place? Not to be would have been better, no anxiety, no anguish. Not to be would have been more peaceful. Why did you create us?”
The whole of existence seems to be mischievous. It seems as if somebody, a sadistic God, is sitting there, torturing people, creating a thousand and one ways to torture them.
Right now you cannot thank him because right now you are not. When you are, you will be able to thank him. And the way to be goes through death, through surrender. And the way goes through silence. But it is not easy to be silent; it is the most arduous thing to be silent.
Now this small story:
The pupils of the Tendai school used to study meditation before Zen entered Japan. Four of them, who were intimate friends, promised one another to observe seven days of silence.
On the first day all were silent, but when the night came and the oil lamps were growing dim, one of the pupils could not help exclaiming to a servant, “Fix those lamps.”
The second pupil was surprised to hear the first one talk. “We are not supposed to say a word,” he remarked.
“You two are stupid. Why did you talk?” asked the third.
“I am the only one who has not talked – thank God!” concluded the fourth.
What happened? The Tendai school is a school of meditation. Before Zen entered Japan, Tendai was very much prevalent. But that too was a school of meditation. In fact, because of Tendai and its roots in Japan, Zen could enter Japan. These things don’t happen suddenly, you need a climate. A country does not become suddenly interested in meditation. It needs a climate. The climate is born out of a long tradition.
In the Tendai school, a seven-day silence was ordinarily prescribed to every disciple. Why a seven-day silence? It is very symbolic, the number is symbolic. Man has seven centers and each center has to attain silence. You may not have looked at it in that way. When the sex center becomes silence it is brahmacharya, it is celibacy. When the heart center becomes silence it is compassion. If the heart center is in turmoil there is anger. If the sex center is in turmoil, shouting, there is sexuality. All the seven centers of man have to become silent. When all of them are chained in silence, then this whole being of man falls silent. In that silence one knows the first principle. One is the first principle.
So these disciples must have been told by some master to be silent for seven days. But man functions in a mechanical way. If you sit silently, that doesn’t mean you will become silent. In fact, just the reverse will happen. If you sit silently, you will find a rush of thoughts coming to you. You will be more crowded by thoughts than ever. All sorts of thoughts, relevant, irrelevant, meaningful, meaningless, they will all jumble together. It will be rush-hour traffic. And they will all claim your attention. Your attention will become fragmentary, you will almost feel like going mad. You will be torn apart. You will feel you are being pulled and pushed in so many directions. You will start feeling crazy.
Just to sit does not help. One has to be very aware. These four disciples were not aware at all. So when the one said: “Fix those lamps” to a servant who was passing by, he must have done it in a very unconscious way, otherwise he was to keep silent. It was none of his business whether the lamps were getting dim or not. He had to remember that he was in silence, but he forgot.
The story is not humorous, it is tragic. That’s how things are with you, with everybody.
It happened after twenty-four hours. Try it. Just take your wristwatch today and sit silently, put your wristwatch in front of you, look at the second hand. The second hand moves one complete circle in one minute. Just watch the second hand and remember, “I am to remember the second hand moving, I am not to forget it.” And it will be difficult for you even to remember for fifteen seconds, you will forget. After two, three seconds you will start thinking something else, then again you will remember, then again you will forget. In one minute you will forget at least four, five times. You will not be able to remember for one continuous minute that you are to remember the second hand moving, that you are not to go anywhere else.
So please don’t laugh at this story. The first reaction is laughter, but it is very tragic. It is how we are.
For twenty-four hours they are sitting silently. Then suddenly one servant is passing and one of the pupils says: “Fix those lamps.” Not that he is interested in the lamps. Anything would have provoked him, anything would have become an excuse. He wanted to say something. He must have been going crazy. That’s why the second cannot tolerate it. He says: “What? We are not supposed to say a word. And the third says: “You two are stupid. Why did you talk?” And the fourth says: “I am the only one, thank God, who has not talked yet. They all wanted to say something, to release, to get a little relief. It must have been getting too heavy on them.
So one thing: when you sit silently, all doors for your thoughts to be released through are closed, so they hammer within you, they start gathering within you. They become a mob. Their presence becomes heavy, then you will find any excuse and you will say something.
In many traditions a mantra is given, chanting is given. The master gives you a mantra. That is just to help you so you don’t go mad, nothing else. It is just a help for the beginners. A mantra is given: “Go on repeating, ‘Ram, Ram, Ram.’” That will help; it will remain a release. Other thoughts will not bother you too much; at least one passage is open so something can flow. You can go on repeating, “Ram, Ram, Ram” and this will help you in the beginning, but this is not real meditation. It is just a preparation for meditation. What Maharishi Mahesh Yogi calls Transcendental Meditation, is neither meditation nor transcendental. It is just a cleaning; a beginner prepares himself for meditation.
Meditation starts with silence, not with a mantra, but a mantra can be helpful if you are very alert. Otherwise even the mantra can become dangerous, you may get too addicted to it. Then you remain outside the temple. The mantra is a help if you know that it is just to make you ready, by and by, to become silent.
So many thoughts are there, then one thought is allowed to you, “Ram, Ram, Ram.” Ninety-nine thoughts are not allowed, one is allowed. If you can attain this, then one day that one has to be dropped too. But if this one becomes very strong, and there is every possibility it will become strong because your whole attachment that was divided in a hundred thoughts will now fall on one thought. It will become a very deep attachment. It will become your very soul. If somebody will say, “Drop it,” you will be angry. “This is my mantra,” you will say. “How can I drop it?” Even a man like Ramakrishna found it very difficult to drop his Mother Kali at the last moment.
Difficult. You have cultivated it so much, you have put so much into it. All your desires, all your projections, all your thoughts, you have poured into it. It becomes one of the strongest thoughts in your being. It will be very difficult. So unless you are alert from the very beginning, a mantra can poison you rather than help you.
In the Tendai school there is no mantra, so these four disciples must have been getting very volcanic. They must have been sitting on a volcano, they must have been ready to explode. The passing of the servant and the oil lamps growing dim was just an excuse.
The mind is so habituated to thinking. So habituated to expressing itself that it is almost impossible to get out of it, unless you put your total energy in getting out of it, unless you make it a life and death problem. If you are just trying so-so, it will not help. If you are just making a lukewarm effort, it will not help. Unless it really becomes a life and death problem it is not going to help.

A man came to Sheik Farid and said, “I would like to know God. Can you give me some method?”
Farid said, “I am going to the river to take my bath, come with me. And if I get a chance, I will give you the method.” They went to the river. The man was very curious as to what he was going to give him at the river. At the river Farid said, “Now you also undress and get down into the river with me. Let us first take a bath.”
So the man got down into the river and when he came close to Farid, Farid jumped on top of him, pushed him down into the river. Farid was a very strong man. The seeker could not understand what was happening. He had come to ask how to attain God and this man was trying to kill him.
But when it is a question of life and death, even the seeker, who was not a very strong man, also tried hard. He threw Farid away and when he came out of the water he said, “What nonsense. I had always thought that you are a pious man. You have fame as a mystic, and what were you doing? Are you a murderer? I have not done anything to you. I have just asked a question how to attain God.”
Farid said, “That’s what I was doing, giving you a method. Just now, tell me one thing first in case you forget. What happened when I was pushing you down into the river? How many thoughts were there in your mind?”
He said, “Thoughts? There was only one thought, how to get rid of you. And by the end even that disappeared. Then there was only an effort, not a thought, no thought. My whole life was at stake. It was just an effort to get out of the river somehow. And I had put all my energies – known, unknown, conscious, unconscious, whatever – because this seemed to be the last moment.”
Farid said, “That is the method. When God becomes a life and death problem. Not a question, not a curiosity, but a life and death problem. When your life and death hang on the very question, on the very quest, only then will you be able to know.”

Now these four seekers are sitting there. Lukewarm they must be. They don’t know what they are doing. Somebody has told them to sit silently; they are sitting. The mind functions mechanically. To get out of it you will have to use all your energy. The possibility is there, you can get out of it.
Gurdjieff used to say that man is a machine. Then somebody asked, “Then what is the difference between a real machine and man?” And Gurdjieff said, “The difference is, if man wants, he can go beyond the machine too. The machine cannot.” Otherwise there is no difference. As man exists he is a machine. The only difference is in the future, in the possibility, potentiality. If man wants to get out of the mechanical world he can, but great effort will be needed.

A city fellow bought a place in the country recently and was going to raise livestock, but when he arrived at his farm, all he found was a large, ancient sow. “Hell of a note,” he muttered and stamped off to the general store. The storekeeper was sympathetic and volunteered that he should breed his sow with Farmer Jones’ boar, and soon he would be in the livestock business. “Great idea,” said the slicker.
So he loaded his sow in a wheelbarrow and took her to Farmer Jones. The next morning he rushed out of bed and looked into the pigpen, but no piglets. Disgusted, he went back to the store and the storekeeper tolerantly recommended Farmer Smith’s boar now.
Once again the sow was loaded in the wheelbarrow and taken down the road, and once again the next morning the slicker found no piglets. This routine went on for a week, and finally on the eighth day, the slicker refused to get out of his warm bed in the early morning. Rolling over to his wife he said, “Look out the window and see if there are any piglets in the pen.”
His wife looked. “There aren’t any piglets in the pen,” she said, “but the sow is back in the wheelbarrow.”

That’s how the mind functions – mechanically. It goes on doing things which it has been doing. It goes on repeating.
If you really want to become a man, get out of your repetitions. There are no bad habits and no good habits because all habits are bad. To live through habits is to live a mechanical life. Get beyond, become aware.
Now, all these four men just said things out of habit, not knowing what they were saying.
And it is very easy for you to see others committing mistakes, errors, because you can look at others objectively. It is very difficult to look at yourself. The moment you start looking at yourself you are becoming nonmechanical. To become aware of your habits is the beginning of a nonmechanical life, is the beginning of life itself. To exist as a machine is not to exist at all.
Three small stories of how man is. Because of mechanical habits he lives unconsciously. You do a thousand and one things, but you simply go on doing them because you have been doing them.
First scene…

One of the two drunks standing beside a lamp post asked his companion, “Say, you gotta match?”
“I think so,” said his companion. “Let me see.” He reached in his pocket, withdrew a stick match and rubbed the unsulphured end on the lamp post several times. “No good,” he said finally, and threw it away. He pulled out another and tried again to strike the unsulphured end. “No good,” he said again, and threw it away. He reached into his pocket, found another match and fortunately tried to light the proper end. It blazed up, but immediately he blew it out and thrust it into his pocket. “Ah,” he beamed. “That’s a good one. Gotta save it.”

The second scene…

A cop approached three drunks on a park bench. The one in the middle was snoring peacefully, apparently passed out, but the two on either side were going through the motions of fishing, casting out their lines, jerking them, and reeling them in swiftly. The cop watched for a while and then shook the middle man awake.
“Are these nuts friends of yours, buddy?”
The drunk nodded.
“Well, get them out of here and make it snappy.”
The drunk agreed, saluted, and began rowing vigorously.

The third scene…

Mort and Leo wandered into one of those newfangled bars and sat down in a booth. The sign on the wall of their booth said, “Push button to call the waiter.” Mort pushed the button, and sure enough the waiter appeared. “Two beers,” ordered Mort and the waiter brought them their beers.
This kept up for a good four hours and it was hard to say which pleased them more, drinking beer or pushing the button for the waiter. Finally, full of fun and good cheer the two parted and went home. The next morning Leo’s wife had him on the carpet. “What the hell did you think you were doing last night?” she demanded.
Leo was puzzled. “I don’t know. What was I supposed to have done?”
“All night long,” remonstrated his wife, “you kept poking your finger into my navel and calling for two beers.”

A mechanical mind is an unconscious mind. You go on doing things, but not knowing what you are doing and why you are doing them. And while doing them there is no awareness. Walking, you walk, but there is no awareness. Eating, you eat, but there is no awareness. Talking, you talk, but there is no awareness.
The story is significant. It says the first did it unconsciously, and the second could see the error, but the second did something unconsciously himself. The third could see the error of them both, but he committed the same error. And the fourth could see the error of all three and thanked God: “I am the only one who has not yet broken silence. It is very easy to see the error of somebody else because that is not your mechanical thing. You can be aware of it. When it comes to your own mechanical things you become completely unaware.
Can’t you see? Somebody is eating too much and you can say very easily, “Don’t eat too much.” Somebody is angry and you can say, “What are you doing? Going mad?” Somebody is in love and doing foolish things and you can say, “Are you going mad? What are you doing?” But the question is, “Can the man who has fallen in love see it?”
Just the other night, one beautiful sannyasin told me that she has fallen in love with a man and things are going really fantastically, the relationship is beautiful. I told her, “Every beginning of a relationship is beautiful. That is not something to brag about. The question is, ‘Can the beautiful relationship remain beautiful?’” All relationships start in beauty, in sweetness, in harmony. All relationships start as they should be, but sooner or later things start falling. Sooner or later the negative asserts, sooner or later the ugly comes up – then is the question. But the woman said, “It will not come.” All that she said, summarized, would mean that she was an exception; it was not going to happen. And that is the foolishness of all lovers. That’s how all lovers think, that it is not going to happen to them.
And when it has happened, then it is too late. Then you cannot put things right again. When things start going wrong, there is no way to put them right again. Even if you put them right, they will never be the same. It is as if a cup has broken. You can put it right, you can glue it together. But it will never be the same again. It is better to handle it carefully from the beginning. And the first thing to know is that every relationship starts good and every relationship ends bad. Yours included, mind you. It is very easy to see that others are just unaware. “But we two who have fallen in love, we are different,” that is everybody’s idea.
Now, the woman was very confident, and in that very confidence is the problem. In that very confidence she will miss because when you are so confident you don’t take any precautions. When you are so confident you don’t try to be aware of what is happening. Then you move unaware and all that is in you, by and by, will come up, is bound to come up.
In the beginning when two lovers meet they show their beautiful faces. Their gracefulness is infinite. Their care about each other is absolute. It has to be so because both are showing their beautiful parts. But when they are together for twenty-four hours, then it will be impossible. It will be too heavy to keep the ugly parts always hidden. By and by the ugly parts will take revenge. They will start coming up.
When you fall in love, why do we call it a “fall”? It is called a “fall” because it helps you to be unconscious. It is a fall. You become unconscious. We say somebody has “fallen” asleep, somebody has “fallen” in love. “Fall” means now you are no longer conscious, you are behaving very mechanically. Love in itself is mechanical. Then, when the hate starts coming, you will be a victim of that too.
If you really want to change your life, start immediately. If you have fallen in love, make it an awareness. Do things with full awareness. See that you are showing the positive aspects of you and you are hiding the negative. See well that this cannot last long, so something has to be done. If the relationship has to become really intimate, if it is to go long, then something has to be done. And that something has to be done in you, not in the other. Otherwise the woman thinks the husband has betrayed, the husband thinks the woman has betrayed. That’s what these four people thought: the other is doing wrong.
Whenever you throw the responsibility on the other, you are avoiding awareness. Let this be a very fundamental law. Whenever you throw responsibility on the other, you are saying, “I am doing perfectly well, the other is doing wrong.” A man who is trying to be aware will always see, “I am responsible, I am doing something wrong.” It is not a question of whether the other is doing wrong or not. That is his problem. That is not your problem. Your problem is whether you are doing something unconsciously. If you are doing something unconsciously, then things cannot go on being beautiful forever. Then all that is there is going to be temporary, it cannot have the quality of the eternal, it cannot have the timeless beauty and divinity in it.
So always remember, when you see somebody doing something wrong, somebody committing an error, rather than jumping on him, look into yourself, at what you are doing. If you can watch everybody’s error and everybody’s error becomes a remembrance of your own errors, your life will be transformed. Then everybody will become a teacher to you. Then the whole of life becomes your master. Everywhere you will find arrows pointing to you. The whole of life will be arrowed toward you, saying, “This is unconscious, this is irresponsible.”
We have found a very easy trick. We turn the arrows toward others. Others go on throwing the arrows toward us, we go on throwing the arrows toward others. In this game, life is lost. Don’t continue playing this game.
Your world is created by your consciousness or your unconsciousness. It has nothing to do with your wife, your husband, your children, your friends, your society. Your world is you. Bring light to your world. Bring more awareness to your world. And start existing less like a machine, more like a man. Otherwise one has been going from one life to another, repeating the same.
You have repeated enough. Are you not yet bored? Are you not yet fed up with it? Start changing a few fundamental things. One, stop looking at others’ errors, and each time you see somebody else committing an error, a mistake, start finding out immediately somewhere some mistake in yourself. In fact, to look at the mistake of the other is a way of avoiding your own mistake. One feels very good: “Somebody else is committing a mistake and I am perfectly okay.” Start analyzing, observing. Become more critical about your habits, about your ways, about your style of life.
I have heard about one man who married eight times. Each time he thought, “I have found the wrong woman.” And he was not wrong. After each marriage there was misery. He divorced the first woman, tried to find another, and again after a few months the same misery. And he was surprised at how he managed to find the same type of woman again and again. Eight times he married, and each time he married the same type of woman. And each time he was trying to be more alert not to fall in the trap again, but he fell because when you choose a woman the chooser is the same. How can you change the woman?
If the chooser is the same, the choice is going to be the same. Again the same thing will appeal to you. Maybe the face is a little different, the hairstyle is a little different, the color of the hair is a little different, but that is not the point. These are irrelevant things. A marriage does not depend on the color of the hair, a marriage does not depend on the color of the eyes, and a marriage does not depend on the length of the nose. These are superficial things. After two days, who looks at the size of the nose? Or who bothers about the color of the hair? In fact, if your wife suddenly goes and changes the color of her hair, the husband will be the last one to note it. Who bothers?
But more essential is why you choose a certain woman, why you choose a certain man. Why? What fits with your mind? Again you will choose the same type of woman, for the same reasons. Those reasons are unconscious. So you can go on changing women and you will not find the woman you are searching for. You can go on changing your job and you will not find the job you are searching for. And you can go on searching among the masters. From one to another you can go on moving and you will not find the master you are searching for, unless you become more alert about your mechanical habits.
Once you become aware of your mechanical habits, things start changing. Then the first ray of light has entered. Then you will choose a different kind of woman because you have become different. Then you will choose a different kind of master because you have become different. Then you will choose everything in a different way because you are different. And if a person chooses out of awareness, he chooses rightly.
People come to me and they ask, “What is right and what is wrong?” I say, “Awareness is right, unawareness is wrong.” I don’t label actions as wrong and right. I don’t say violence is wrong. Sometimes violence can be right. I don’t say love is right. Sometimes love can be wrong. Love can be for a wrong person, love can be for a wrong purpose. Somebody loves his country; now, this is wrong because nationalism is a curse. Somebody loves his religion; he can kill, he can murder, he can burn others’ temples. Neither is love always right nor is anger always wrong.
Then what is right and what is wrong? To me, awareness is right. If you are angry with full awareness, even anger is right. And if you are loving with unawareness, even love is not right.
So let the quality of awareness be there in every act that you do, in every thought that you think, in every dream that you dream. Let the quality of awareness enter your being more and more. Become suffused with the quality of awareness. Then whatever you do is virtue. Then whatever you do is good. Then whatever you do is a blessing to you and to the world in which you live.
Ponder over this small story. It is a story of four unconscious people who are trying to be silent. But they have not understood the laws of thought, they have not understood the law of being unconscious. They don’t know that man is a machine. They don’t know that to look at the other is a way of avoiding oneself. They are not yet conscious of what they are doing. Even though they are sitting in meditation and trying to be silent, they are not aware of the science of silence, of the Yoga of meditation. Hence this foolish anecdote became possible.
You will be repeating the same thing. All, the whole of humanity, are repeating. Don’t think that you are an exception. Don’t think that if you were one of these four people you would not have committed this. Know well you would have committed it. This story is about you. It has nothing to do with the Tendai school. These four can be Osho sannyasins.
Watch each step that you take, in action or in thought. The only goal is awareness, and then your whole life is transformed. Then your whole life attains a new quality, a new dimension. And that dimension leads to the first principle.
You are the first principle.
Enough for today.

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