Past the Point of No Return

Recollections of Osho Disciples on how they became His Sannyasins

INTRODUCTION

“I have found my people. I have found my world. I have found a small planet of my own, where love is the only law, where laughter is prayer, where dancing is divine, where every moment is sacred, and where to be natural is the only spirituality. Click here for more…

13 Ma Yoga Punya

MA YOGA PUNYA (Union and Virtue)
Born in 1944 in Aarau, Switzerland. Punya took sannyas in 1974 and presently lives near Newcastle-upon-Tyne, England.

THE FRAGRANCE OF TRUTH OR A BEWITCHING PICTURE

After several years of working as a graphic designer, translator, editor, and production manager – all  in one – for a monthly magazine for the Italian printing trade, I was employed by a German import-export company in Milan. With my Portuguese boyfriend, João, I shared a flat in Viale Bianca Maria, where, on the same landing, he had opened his graphic studio. It was a posh address, but our flat was in an old block close to Piazza Cinque Giornate, a square which was going to see violent demonstrations by the communists against the fascists who had their quarters a few streets behind us…

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Anand Vandana

MA ANAND VANDANA (Blissful Prayer/Gratitude)
Born in 1947 in Wellington, New Zealand. Vandana took sannyas in 1974 and presently lives in Perth, Western Australia.

HE TOOK OFF THE LID

In the early 70’s, my life, which had never really come together, began to fall apart. Living in Sydney in a crazy never-functional marriage, my husband was producing the album for “Hair”, and stoned actors and musicians were all over our house. One night while digesting a mind-altering chemical, I heard John Lennon’s screaming post-Primal Therapy album, “John Lennon and the Plastic Ono Band”, and went, “I want what he’s having”…

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11 Nirava Sohana

MA NIRAVA SOHANA (Silent Gratefulness)
Born in 1942 in Jersey City, N.J. U.S.A. Sohana took sannyas in 1984 and presently lives in Arizona, USA.

INDEPENDENCE DAY

My life has been filled with adventures since an early age. Being a Sagittarian, I played with bows and arrows as a child and remember shooting my neighbor even though Dennis was a cute boy and I liked him. The arrow had a rubber tip. I grew up in New Jersey and escaped at the earliest possible time, never to return…

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10 Premrup

MA PREMRUP (Love and Beauty)
Born in 1943 in Chicago, Illinois, U.S.A. Premrup took sannyas in 1978 and presently lives in Santa Rosa, California, USA.

SYNCHRONICITY

It was the mid-seventies and I was part of a radical socialist-feminist group. We met once a week, plotting events to embarrass rich people. We were children of the 60s, living in suburban America, dissident and dissatisfied… anything but grateful. We were full of anger and rationalizations to justify that anger by pointing outside ourselves at all the obvious faults in society. After many meetings, I plucked up my courage to announce that I was leaving this group because I felt no love amongst its members for each other let alone people… and why plan revolution without love, if you know what I mean…

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9 Swami Prem Nirvano

SWAMI PREM NIRVANO (Love and Enlightenment)
Born in 1941 in Gera, Thuringia, Germany. Nirvano took sannyas in 1976 and presently lives near Cologne, Germany.

SOMETHING IS AWAITING YOU

Today is Monday, the 19th of January, 2009. In other words: It’s exactly 19 years ago that Osho left his body. And it’s exactly 33 years ago that Osho came into my life.

It was a cold Sunday afternoon in London. I was waiting for a friend, standing outside Burlington House where we were going to see the exhibition ‘The Golden Age of Spanish Painting’, when suddenly I saw two people in orange coming towards me from Trafalgar Square. Presently, I recognized in them my old friends Luigi and Mario, a gay couple. I hadn’t seen them for about three years; they were then living in South Kensington and I had spent almost every weekend with them, coming down from Cambridge…

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Neerava

SWAMI ANAND NEERAVA (Blissful Silence)
Born in 1948 in London, England. Neerava took sannyas in 1978 and is presently living in Perth, Western Australia.

GOD IS WITHIN

If I’m honest, it was clothes and sex – two of my favourite things (when I was younger) – which started me on my way to Osho! It’s a long story because it took me a long time to get it; Osho and sannyas eased gently into my life.

In the mid-1970s, I was a young and idealistic left-wing lawyer, and former professional rock drummer, working in a legal aid practice in the East End of London. I wanted to help change the many injustices and things I saw wrong in the world…

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Atta

MA PREM ATTA (Love of Self)
Born in 1946 in Lima, Peru. Atta took sannyas in 1978 and is presently living in Bali, Indonesia

IN LOVE WITH THE GUY

In 1969, during what became known as the Summer of Love, I was working as a stewardess for United Airlines, out of San Francisco. Work life was Miss Stewardess, prim and proper, and in the off-hours a hippie in Marin County. United had announced a special program for airline volunteers to have a work experience in Asia and I had applied to the Tom Dooley Foundation for a position working with Tibetan refugee children in a day care centre at the carpet factory in Jawalakhel in Nepal. When I flew to Kathmandu to check out my future post, I met a hipster there named Milan Melvin who had been married to Joan Baez’ little sister, Mimi Farina…

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Devopama

SWAMI ANAND DEVOPAMA (Divine-like Bliss)
Born in 1937 in Lincoln, England. Devopama took sannyas in 1976 and left his body in 2018 in Somerset, England

THE SHIFT FROM HEAD TO HEART

Sannyas found me. I just went along with what was clearly happening, and enjoyed the thrill of whole new vistas opening up. The conscious sense of a connection with Osho, or with Bhagwan, as he was known then, came later, after I’d been to Poona. Even there – so far as I was aware – it came in little realisations, nuggets perhaps: during one of my first lectures in the old Chuang Tzu Auditorium, in German Purna’s Janov-style primal group and the group darshan afterwards, a Hindi discourse, as he drove by outside Lao Tzu Gate. These are some of the most memorable moments….

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Anado

MA PREM ANADO (Love and Soundless Silence)
Born in 1944 in Modena, Italy. Anado took sannyas in 1978 and left her body in 2015 in Seattle, WA, USA

DÉJÀ VU

Can you believe it?

Can you believe the silhouette of a man, all dressed in flowing orange robes, with long curly hair floating in the breeze around a smiling face, walking down a little country road in Tuscany? Surrounded by fields and vineyards, by cypress trees and olive groves, he walks with a steady gait, carrying an orange bag on his shoulder. The sun is at midday, so this orange man’s shadow walks with him, under him, the only shade on the road…

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5 Anand Gayan

MA ANAND GAYAN (Song of Bliss)
Born in 1947 in Hamburg, Germany. Gayan took sannyas in 1976 and is presently living near Munich, Germany.

THE FACE I WOULD NEVER FORGET

It was during the ‘swinging sixties’ with the Beatles, Elvis, the hippies, the miniskirt and the hula hoop; I was living in Munich together with my boyfriend, studying ballet at the ‘Musikhochschule’, a branch of the university. We were moving around in the esoteric scene, which was in reality not much of a scene…

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6 Deva Anupam.docx

SWAMI DEVA ANUPAM (Divine Uniqueness)
Born in 1948 in New York, U.S.A. Took Sannyas in 1978 and is presently living near Perth, Western Australia.

JUST TO BE HERE JUST FOR THIS

Osho came into my life in 1976 when I was 28 years old, at the end of the fourth seven-year cycle of life. I was living in Los Angeles at that time and was becoming tired of my life situation; tired of working in a boring, dead-end job in a record and tape warehouse, and tired too of the limited and not very satisfying distractions of alcohol, drugs, and the occasional sexual encounter. I knew that I was going nowhere, and while it was clear that there was no future in what I was doing, I had no idea there were any worthwhile alternatives…

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7 Deva Priya

MA DEVA PRIYA (Beloved of the Divine)
Born in 1969 in Ludhiana, India. Priya took sannyas in 1976 and is presently living in Dharamshala, Himachal Pradesh, India.

I WILL TAKE CARE OF HER

Osho is my love affair since childhood. I feel very strongly that it was not just an accident that I was born in a house where Osho was loved so much. I really feel that I chose my parents. The day my mother, Neelam, knew she was pregnant with me was the same day she met Osho for the first time. Both of my parents fell in love with him. My mom started meditating while I was in her womb…

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8 Prem Azima

SWAMI PREM AZIMA (Big Love)
Born in 1953 in Verona, Italy. Azima took sannyas in 1978 and presently lives in Sicily, Italy.

LOST IN HIS EYES

During  1968, a time when many young people believed that social change could be implemented, I was a young boy of 13 living in Palermo, Sicily, best known as a Mafia nest. Aloneness is the image that is paramount in my memory – I had a strong feeling of ‘not belonging to this city or family or environment’. I generally felt disconnected from people and could not understand their morals and ways of living…

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