Mystery of Tears
Osho on Tears
WHY DO I CRY WHENEVER SOMETHING REAL HAPPENS IN MEDITATION? SOMETIMES, EVEN DURING LECTURE, WHEN YOU SAY SOMETHING THAT STRIKES ME AS MY OWN TRUTH, TEARS COME TO MY EYES AND I TREMBLE WITH SILENT SOBS. WHAT IS THE CONNECTION BETWEEN TRUTH AND TEARS?
The question is from Michael Gottlieb. First, it may be, Gottlieb, that only tears are true in you, everything else has become false. Your smile, your face, your gestures, your words — all may have become false. It may be that only your tears are still true. That’s why whenever you hear something of truth, they start surfacing. They are in tune with truth. And this is not only so with you, this is so with many people.
Tears have not been corrupted too much, particularly in men. About women it is not so true. Their tears may he just a facade, their tears may be their diplomacies, their tears may be their tricks, strategies. But about men… men have not been allowed tears at all. People have been told from their very childhood that if you are a man, then tears are not available for you. You should NEVER cry! So tears have remained there, uncorrupted by the society, unpolluted by the society — at least it is so with men.
So whenever you hear something of truth — something that simply goes and becomes a song in your heart, something that simply penetrates like a ray of light into your darkness — tears come, because the true calls forth the true in you.
Michael Gottlieb’s name is beautiful: ‘Gottlieb’ means God-love. Maybe there is a great desire for God, a great love for God which is getting ready every day, which is going to possess you. Allow those tears, because the danger is that you may be repressing them. Gottlieb is a psychologist — that is the danger. You may start rationalising, you may start finding explanations. You may start stopping those tears which are innocent — as innocent as dewdrops — which are uncorrupted by your mind; they come from the beyond. Those tears are coming from your heart. Don’t start explaining them.
Psychologists have become very clever at explaining away everything.
Live with the mystery of the tears. When they come, allow them. Go into those sobs, those sobs are the beginning of prayer in you. Flow in those tears totally, unashamed. Don’t feel embarrassed. Go wholeheartedly into them, and through them you will be cleansed and purified. Those tears will become your very alchemy. Their very touch will turn you into gold.
I have been watching Gottlieb. He has been here for only a few days, and deep down he is afraid of Sannyas. First he was only going to stay for ten days, then he extended it for a few days. Now he has extended a little more, and by and by he is getting trapped. Now the tears have started to come. Now it is dangerous, Gottlieb.
But still you are not allowing them a total flow. Be swayed by them. Let that throb go to your very cells and the fibres of your being. Let those tears dance in and around you, and through those tears you will be initiated. Through those tears you are coming close to me and I am coming close to you. If you allow, something is going to happen, something immensely valuable. But it depends on you whether you will allow it or you will escape before it becomes too much.
To be here needs courage. To be with me means risk. If you decide to be with me, you are risking finding yourself. The risk is there. And to find oneself, one has to die to one’s whole past, because the new can come only when the old has disappeared. Let those tears take your past, let them wash you. They are preparing you for me. And you have a heart which can grow in prayer. But if you allow, only then. Nothing can be done against you. And up to now you have been fighting, you have been protecting, safeguarding yourself. You are keeping a little bit aloof, distant. Then you are doing it at your own risk. You may miss the opportunity.
This is an excerpt from the transcript of a public discourse by Osho in Buddha Hall, Shree Rajneesh Ashram, Pune.
Discourse Series: I Say Unto You, Vol 1
Chapter title: They Gave Him Crucifixion
28 October 1977 am in Buddha Hall
Osho has spoken on ‘tears, prayer, heart, truth, love’ in many of His discourses. More on the subject can be referred to in the following books/discourses:
- Sufis: The People of the Path, Vol 1, 2
- Vigyan Bhairav Tantra, Vol 1
- YAA-HOO! The Mystic Rose
- Yoga: The Alpha and the Omega, Vol 5
- The Divine Melody
- Beyond Enlightenment
- The Messiah, Vol 1, 2
- Vedanta: Seven Steps to Samadhi
- My Way: The Way of the White Clouds
- The Beloved, Vol 1, 2
- From Bondage to Freedom
- The Tantra Vision, Vol 1, 2
- Sermons in Stones
- Socrates Poisoned Again After 25 Centuries
- From the False to the Truth