I Am That 10

Tenth Discourse from the series of 16 discourses - I Am That by Osho.
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The first question:
We Indians know that we have been caught in serious diseases for centuries, but when such a great doctor like you refuses us, what will become of us?
I am not refusing anybody, but I certainly have to refuse your diseases. I cannot accept your diseases, no physician can do that. Those who accept your diseases are your enemies. Your diseases have to be mercilessly destroyed, whoever you are: Indian, German, English. Diseases come in all forms, sizes and shapes. You may be a Hindu or a Christian or a Jew, it does not matter.
The whole past of humanity has been full of many fundamental errors, but they have existed for so long that they have almost become part of you, hence the feeling that I reject you. I am simply rejecting the disease, but you are identified with the disease. You think your diseases, the sum total of your diseases, is what you are. That’s not true, you are not just your diseases, you are something beyond all that has happened to you in the whole past. All that has happened is only a conditioning; it can be dropped, it has to be dropped. Hence I condemn it, but your ego feels hurt. I cannot help… I cannot have any compassion for any kind of disease.
When diseases exist for a long time, and they are given from one generation to another generation, they become very respectable. You forget that they are diseases, you start thinking that they are specialties to you.
For example, T. M. Ramachandran has asked, “Osho, why do you say that nothing has been happening in the East? Great, great things have been happening in the East as well. Is not Hinduism and its way of life the greatest religion in the world?”
What is this Hindu way of life? It is utterly life-negative. Even to call it a way of life is not right. It can be called a way of death, but not a way of life. How can anything life-negative become a philosophy of life?
Hinduism teaches you to reject life, to renounce life. You worship the escapist people; you call them saints, mahatmas. Those who have gone against the world, those who have rejected the world, those who have condemned the world and all that it contains, they are thought to be people of God.
God exists in the manifest world as the unmanifest center of it all. The moment you reject the flower you also reject its fragrance; if you escape from the flower you are escaping from the fragrance too – and God is the fragrance of existence. Those who go against life are basically going against God.
You have heard the proverb: Man proposes and God disposes. Hinduism does just the opposite: God proposes, man disposes. It is God’s proposition – this existence, this life, but man disposes it.
George Gurdjieff, one of the greatest masters of this century, used to say, “Your mahatmas are all against God.” He is absolutely right, one hundred percent right because your mahatmas are denouncers. They negate. They make you feel guilty of love, of life, of laughter. They make you feel guilty if you are joyous, if you are cheerful. They make you feel guilty if you enjoy food, if you enjoy friendship, if you enjoy any kind of relationship. They make you feel guilty for all that you enjoy and they impose things upon you for which there is no enjoyment in you.
All that you can do with these negative attitudes is nourish your ego. Hence your mahatmas are the most egoistic people in the world. But when one starts thinking of diseases as if they are something great, then it becomes very difficult for you to listen to the physician.
I don’t reject anybody. To me it is all the same whether you are a Hindu or a Mohammedan or a Christian. Your diseases are a little bit different, but not basically because all the religions that have existed in the past have used a similar strategy and that is to create guilt. That has been the technique of the priest to dominate you, make people feel guilty of small joys – and of course those joys are natural and spontaneous.
When a person becomes guilty of his own nature he starts rejecting himself, he starts dying. It is a slow kind of suicide. He becomes sad, he becomes drained off, his life loses flavor. And then of course, trembling, he has to go to the priest because the priest knows the way, how to go beyond this guilt. The priest creates the guilt in the first place – it is his trade secret – and then you have to go to the priest because there is nobody else who can guide you. That is the business of the priest, to guide you about spiritual affairs. And you are feeling so sad, so miserable; you need help, you need somebody to support you. You need somebody to teach you ways, means, methods, so that you can get rid of your guilt.
But the priest goes on creating more guilt in you. He creates so much fear of life in you that Hinduism became obsessed with the idea of how to get rid of birth and death, how to get rid of avagaman – coming and going into existence.
Life is so beautiful!

Rabindranath, one of the great poets of all time, was on his deathbed. A friend – a very religious friend, of course – told him, “Pray to God that this should be your last life, you should be freed.”
Rabindranath opened his eyes – his last moments, but he became angry and he said, “Shut up! I am praying to God, ‘your life has been such a beautiful gift to me, give it to me again and again. I would like to come back to see the sunrise, the sunset, the starry night, the flowers, a bird on the wing, the green trees, your rivers, your mountains, your people. I would like to come again and again and again! It is so vast and inexhaustible, and it has not been a misery to me.’”
Rabindranath is against your whole tradition of the so-called Hinduism. He is one of the most insightful persons that was born into this unfortunate country. He lived joyously, he lived a life of celebration: he loved poetry, created poetry; he loved painting, he created many paintings – he sang, he danced.
This is true prayer! And because of this I say Rabindranath is not a Hindu. He was so much against renunciation that he dared even to write a poem against Gautam the Buddha. The poem is of immense beauty and of great meaning too.

Buddha had left his young wife and a child who was just one day old. Buddha was only twenty-nine years of age and he escaped – that was the ancient Hindu way. He escaped into the forest to find God.
Rabindranath describes Buddha’s renunciation and describes that when he became enlightened he came back home to share his experience.
Yashodhara, his wife, asked him one question that he could not answer. He stood before Yashodhara with his eyes looking at the earth, ashamed. Only Rabindranath could have dared such a poem. What was the question that Yashodhara had asked? She had asked a very simple question, “Now that you have become enlightened, please answer one of my questions that has been haunting my days and my nights for all these years that you have been away. Since you left I have been tortured by this question and I have been waiting because only you can answer it.”
The question was, “Whatsoever you have found in the deep silence of the forest, was it not possible to find it here in the palace with me, with your child, with your old father who has almost gone blind crying and weeping for you? And just look at me! I have become so old within these six years, just waiting every moment for you, waking up in the night again and again, maybe – you had left in the night, you may have come again. Dreaming about you. Ask your son, he has been continuously asking me, ‘Where is my father?’ The whole kingdom is sad, the palace is sad, it has become a cemetery. Just answer one of my questions. Whatsoever you have found in the forest, was it not possible to find it here?”
And Buddha stood ashamed. He could not answer.

This is a parable invented by Rabindranath, but it has great significance. Rabindranath is saying God can be found now and here. There is no need to go into the forest; there is no need to renounce the wife, the children, the old parents. There is no need to go against life. Going against life is like trying to go upstream, fighting with the river – an unnecessary fight. Relax, rest, enjoy and God can be found anywhere because he is everywhere.
Hinduism is life-negative, that’s why it has respected the ascetics. Now, the ascetics are nothing but masochist people, absolutely ill, psychologically ill. The ascetic is the person who enjoys torturing himself, and Hindus have respected the ascetics. The more you torture yourself, the greater a saint you are. So if you lie down on a bed of thorns, thousands will gather to worship you. If you fast for months, then your name and fame will spread to all the corners of the country.
And one of the strangest things is that nobody ever asks, “What has this man contributed to life?” Lying on the bed of thorns is not a contribution; it does not make life more beautiful, it does not enrich existence in any way. Just fasting for months is not a creative act – it is destructive, it is really suicidal.
Hinduism is suicidal. That’s why it was possible for this country to remain in slavery for twenty-two centuries – for the simple reason that nobody is interested in life, so what does it matter who rules it? It is all a dream, it is all maya. Let anybody rule it.
This country has lost its soul because only people who love freedom can have souls. This country only talks about the soul, but slaves can’t have souls. But slaves can always rationalize, in fact they have to rationalize, just to console themselves.
Hindus have become great rationalizers, they rationalize everything: “It is fate, nothing can be done about it. God has decided so. Not even a leaf falls from a tree without the will of God, so how can the country be a slave without the will of God? He must have chosen, we have simply to accept the fate.”
When one starts accepting the fate one becomes lazy, sloppy, lousy because then nothing is left for you to do.

It was the morning after, and he sat groaning and holding his head.
“Well, if you hadn’t drunk so much last night you wouldn’t feel so bad now,” said his wife tartly.
“My drinking had nothing to do with it,” he answered. “I went to bed feeling wonderful and woke up feeling awful. It was the sleep that did it!”

You can always rationalize. You are not responsible – whatsoever had to happen, had to happen. What can you do about it?
India has remained the poorest country in the world, and nobody thinks that Hinduism is the cause of it. If you believe in fate you will not endeavor to become rich, you will not make any effort to be scientific, you will not create technology, industry. You will simply wait. Whenever God changes his will, things will change. As far as you are concerned, nothing can be done about it.

A newly rich dame had bought a summer place in the Himalayas and hired a village woman to do the housework.
“I am a person of few words,” she haughtily told the old woman. “If I beckon with my finger, that means ‘come.’”
“Very well, madam,” replied the old Indian woman. “I am a person of few words myself. If I shake my head from side to side, that means ‘I am not coming.’”

Just watch what you are talking about. A great religion, the greatest religion, and what has it given to you: poverty, starvation, illness. The whole country is living undernourished, sixty percent of people are starving, and nothing is being done. Problems go on increasing and Hindus simply go on sitting, worshipping the elephant god Ganesh, or the monkey god Hanuman, or the holy mother cow, and hoping that these elephants, monkeys and cows are going to help! It has now become so deep rooted that something drastic is needed.
That’s what I am trying to do. Naturally I will offend the unintelligent crowds, I can only be understood by the very intelligent few.

Barfly: “What’s that drink you are mixing?”
Bartender: “I call it a rum overture.”
Barfly: “What’s in it?”
Bartender: “Sugar, a dash of clam juice, and rum.”
Barfly: “How is it?”
Bartender: “Stimulating. The sugar gives you energy and the clam juice gives you drive.”
Barfly: “And the rum?”
Bartender: “Ah, that! That gives you ideas about what to do with all that energy and drive.”

I am mixing a rum overture! You need some drive and you need some ideas what to do with that drive and energy.
I am not rejecting anyone, but I have to reject all these life-negative attitudes. India has become a country of hypocrites for the simple reason that whenever you deny nature that is bound to happen. Nature will assert, is bound to assert. You can repress it for the time being, but not for ever, and whatsoever is repressed will take revenge on you, it will come back with vengeance, it will come back.
So on the one hand you will see Hinduist morality, puritanism, and on the other hand you will see the Hindu obscenity.
The Kama Sutra of Vatsyayana was the first book on obscenity in the whole world. Only in this century Havelock Ellis, Sigmund Freud, Kinsey, Masters and Johnson, these people have started thinking about sexual postures, sex energy and what it is all about and what can be done about it. But Vatsyayana’s Kama Sutras are three thousand years old. Vatsyayana was a Hindu, and Hindus have respected him. They have called him maharishi, the great seer. On the one hand the so-called moralists and on the other hand The Kama Sutras of Vatsyayana and the Koka Shastra of Pundit Koka. Pundit Koka was a Kashmiri Hindu brahmin of the highest caste and his book is fifteen hundred years old, and one of the ugliest in the world. And he was an ordained Hindu.
Who has created the temples of Konarak, Puri, and Khajuraho? On the one hand Hindus have been teaching brahmacharya, celibacy, as the highest goal for humanity; on the other hand they were making sculpture so obscene that it is incomparable. Nowhere else in the world exists any temple like the Khajuraho temples. And it was not only one temple, it was a whole city of temples. At least one hundred temples still survive; there must have been a thousand temples – the ruins are there – and each temple has thousands of obscene postures. They must have taken hundreds of years to make. And if you see Khajuraho you will not believe!
These people who publish magazines like Playboy and Playgirl should come and learn from Khajuraho. Whatsoever they are doing is just ordinary. They cannot compete with Hindu fantasy for the simple reason that they cannot compete with Hindu repression! Once you repress something natural, it starts coming into your mind, it starts moving toward your head. It may disappear from the sex center, which was a natural phenomenon, but now it enters your head.
This has driven the whole Hindu culture toward a very schizophrenic existence. It seems almost impossible how to relate these two phenomena going together.
Pundit Koka of Kashmir – and he is not alone. In the name of Tantra almost ninety-nine charlatans have been bringing sex from the back door. In the tradition of Tantra you will find only one percent authentic masters; ninety-nine percent are just pseudo, tricky people. In the name of Tantra they are bringing the whole sexuality from the back door.
Pundit Koka says that if you really want to move deep into the phenomenon of sex then you have to find a woman of the lowest caste. She has not to be your wife because with your wife you will not be able to enter a really fantastic world of sexuality. Her topography is known to you, her geography is known to you, there is nothing to explore. So find a woman who is not your wife.
Secondly, the woman has to come from the lowest caste because they are more alive people. The higher the caste, the people are more and more bloodless. If you go to the lower castes then people are more alive, more wild. Hence I say to you that Coca-Cola must have originated with Pundit Koka – Cola must have been his girlfriend. That’s why it is so juicy, it is a discovery of the great tantrikas – Coca-Cola!
I am not rejecting Hindus, Jews, Jains or anybody. I have no antagonism with anybody. I don’t belong to any tradition, hence for me all the traditions are the same, but because I don’t belong to any tradition I can see the diseases clearly. When you belong to a tradition you cannot see, your eyes are clouded, you are prejudiced.
Repression brings hypocrisy, and you can see it in India everywhere. People will say that the world is illusory and at the same time they will be as greedy about money as nobody else in the world is. This is strange, but not really if you go deeply into it because they are denying something natural – the world is given to you by God. If you deny it you will have to become obsessed with it, every denial becomes obsession.
“Renounce money!” these people go on saying. If you go to Vinoba Bhave, who represents Hindu tradition, and you take a few notes in your hand, he will immediately close his eyes – he does not see money. Now poor paper, just printed, and makes the Hindu mahatma so afraid that he closes his eyes! It cannot be the currency notes; it must be some deep fear, some greed. He does not touch money.
On the one hand these people go on saying that gold is nothing but dust, but they will not touch gold.
I had asked Vinoba when I met him – he was very eager to meet me, so I said, “Okay now it is your responsibility. If you want to meet me, then I am no longer responsible. Whatsoever happens, transpires, transpires!”
I asked him, “If you say that gold is just dust, why don’t you touch gold? You touch dust!”
In fact, Vinoba Bhave believes in naturopathy – mud packs, mud baths. He is very at ease with mud, enjoys it. Then what is wrong with gold? I take gold baths, gold packs! If it is the same, why bother? But it is not the same. If he is afraid of touching gold and is not afraid of touching dust, then he is being cunning, deceptive – not only to others but to himself too. Then don’t call gold just dust, then gold has some speciality which dust has not got.
You will find Hindus more greedy than anybody else, more full of sexuality than anybody else, more full of sexual fantasies than anybody else, more full of attachment than anybody else. And still you go on saying that Hinduism is the greatest religion in the world? What nonsense are you talking about? Hindus are the most dishonest people for the simple reason that they have not been honest to accept the realities of life.

A man met a friend he had not seen for years and asked him how he was feeling.
“Awful,” replied the friend. “In addition to my high blood pressure I have got arthritis and bronchitis.”
“I am sorry to hear it. What about your job?”
“Oh, I’m still at the same thing I’ve been doing for the past twenty years – I’m selling health foods.”

This man must have been a Hindu! Selling health foods and suffering from high blood pressure, arthritis and bronchitis!

We all know the legend how Diogenes, the great Greek mystic, used to go about with a lantern looking for an honest man, even in the bright daylight. Some modern cynics ask why the cynic philosopher didn’t go about in broad daylight without his lantern. Others ask why he didn’t look in a mirror. Naturally enough, the legend appears in joke-lore. One story tells how Diogenes had spent several hours after dark searching crime-ridden New Delhi for an honest man, and was very weary. A passerby, recognizing him, asked, “What luck?”
“Everything considered, not so bad,” reported Diogenes. “I still have my lantern!”

In Delhi that is really lucky if you can save your lantern, even in the bright day! Some politician is bound to grab it!
The Indian politician is the worst kind of politician in the world, for the simple reason that he belongs to a very ugly, ill, canceric civilization. Hinduism is on its deathbed, or maybe it is already dead and people are worshipping a corpse because it stinks.
I would like to change this whole situation. Hindus, if they are courageous enough, will disconnect themselves from their past, that will be a resurrection. And they can prove, certainly, a great blessing to the whole world because for centuries they have not worked, their potential has remained unactualized. It is like a farm that has not been cultivated for centuries. If you cultivate it right now it will give you the best crop possible because for centuries it has been accumulating potential.
Hindus can assert a new era in the world: if they resurrect, if they drop out of their old past, if they disconnect themselves from their tradition, if they can have a new birth, they may prove the most intelligent people in the world. Their contribution can not only transform this country, it can be a boon, a blessing to the whole life on the earth because they have genius gone wrong; they have intelligence gone astray. If it comes to the right dimension it will be good for their own health, it will be good for the health of the whole world.
The same is true about other races too. Any race that remains clinging with the past remains clinging with corpses. One has to live in the present because the future is born out of the present. And India is living in the past. Out of the past nothing is born, clinging to the past is wasting your time.
Everything in India is past-oriented. People are reading the story of Rama, and these are the days all over the country when they will be playing the drama of Rama. Every year they go on playing the same drama, for thousands of years they have been doing it. They are not even bored by it! It seems they have lost all intelligence. They go on seeing the same thing, repeating the same thing, as if there is nothing else to do. And they go on talking about the golden age – in the past, it is always in the past.
Remember this, a child always thinks good days are to come; the old man always thinks good days, golden days are past. The child is future-oriented, the old man is past-oriented, and the young man, if he is really young – which is very rarely so… Physically there are so many young people in the world, they constitute the majority. But many of them are still in their childhood psychologically, and many of them have already passed into old age psychologically.
If somebody is really young he lives in the present. Now is the only time for him and here is the only place for him. He does not waver between past and future because both are nonexistential. That which exists is the present. The young person lives in the present, and the same is true about civilizations.
The young civilization lives in the present, and if a civilization continuously lives in the present it remains young. That is the whole secret of remaining young. The new civilization, just born, immature, childish, lives in the future; and the old civilization lives in the past. You can immediately see and decide and categorize any civilization, to what category it belongs.
India lives in the past; it is getting old, shrinking. It has lost the joy of life, the youthfulness, the freshness. Countries like Russia, China live in the future. Their golden age is to come, when the classless society, the utopia conceived by Karl Marx will happen, when there will be no class, no poor, no rich, no one dominated and no one dominating, no bourgeoisie, no proletariat. When the classless society and the stateless society are born, somewhere far away in the future, then humanity will have a golden age.
Countries like India live in the past, the golden age has passed long before. Man is falling down. There is great enthusiasm in China because the future seems to be very alluring; there is no enthusiasm in India. India became free before China, but China has been able to solve many problems that are of a vaster dimension than Indian problems because China has the greatest population in the world. But it has been able to solve those problems, it has been able to become a strong country.
India has remained poor; its problems have increased, and there seems to be no possibility that it can solve its problems the way it is moving. Its golden age has passed; there is no enthusiasm, there is no spirit. People are simply dragging.
America is young, lives in the moment, hence there is great exploration going on about everything: science, religion, philosophy, art – new forms of art; new methods, new ways to reach the moon, to Mars and finally to the stars; new methods, quicker methods to enter meditation, samadhi. In every dimension America is interested to explore, the young man’s adventurous spirit is there. They are going to the farthest corners of the world to explore all possibilities.
India is old, dying. China is still being born, just now growing toward a future. America is young.
The future can give you better possibilities than the past, but still the future is nonexistential; sooner or later you will get tired of it. Russia is more tired than China because for sixty years they have been waiting and waiting, and now the hope is turning into a hopelessness. Now it is becoming more and more clear that that stateless society is never going to happen. In fact, the state has become more powerful than ever before. Even the czar was not so powerful as Joseph Stalin was. The czar was thrown by revolution, but in Russia now there is no possibility of any revolution. The state has become such a vast, powerful, technically equipped organization that nobody can revolt against it, nobody can organize any revolution against it. Even to talk anything against it is dangerous, even to think may be dangerous in a few years because now they are discovering that every child can be fixed with an electrode in the head and that electrode will go on informing the government computer what the person is thinking, what he is trying to do in his brain. Even brain waves can be traced, subtle indications can be discovered, and before the man has even uttered a single word he will disappear.
And those electrodes can also do another work: they can implant any idea in the person and you will never be aware that you are carrying an electrode inside your brain because within your skull there is no sensitivity. If a stone is inserted inside your skull you will not feel that there is a stone. There are no sensitive nerves in the brain.
A person carried a bullet in his brain for nine years, absolutely unaware. It was discovered by accident through x-ray, that in the First World War he had been hit by a bullet, and then the wound healed and the bullet remained inside for nine years, and he was not aware at all.
Electrodes are very small things, they can be inserted when the child is born in the hospital. And of course in Russia every child is born in the hospital, so every child can be inserted with an electrode and that electrode will function in two ways – it will inform the government what the person is thinking, and it can do one more thing: the government can manipulate the person through the electrode; it can insert ideas through radio waves, through remote control. And the person will think, “These are my ideas,” he will never think that these ideas are coming from some other source.
In Russia, a revolution is absolutely impossible, hence people are becoming more and more hopeless seeing that Marx had said the state will wither away – once capitalism is gone there will be no need for the state – but the state has become stronger and stronger. Marx’s prediction has gone absolutely wrong, just the opposite has happened.
The same is going to happen to China. Right now they are very enthusiastic, but soon they will settle into the same slavery as Russia has settled into.
The people who are past-oriented, like the Hindus, are living with a long, long dead past – and carrying it. It is a mountainous weight, they are crushed under it. There is no hope in the future. The Hindus think that the best days were in the beginning; they don’t believe in evolution, remember – they believe in involution. Evolution means we are reaching higher peaks. Hindus believe we are deteriorating, coming lower, every day, the highest age was in the beginning; now we are at the lowest, Kaliyuga, the last. This is the very low state of humanity and there is no hope.
For a country to be really alive, to be really adventurous, exploring, enjoying, celebrating, it has to be constantly young, neither in the past nor in the future. I am against both the Hindu approach and the communist approach. I would like the whole humanity to be young and to remain young forever, and the way to remain young is to go on dying to the past and not bother too much about the future. The future will take its own course. When it comes, if we are here we will respond to it, otherwise our children will respond to it. Why bother about it too much?
Live right now. Live as deeply and passionately as you can because that is the only way to discover God. That’s the only source to uncover the hidden secrets of life. God is not against life, God is the innermost core of life. Hence I teach a life-affirmative religion. I don’t teach Hinduism, Mohammedanism, Christianity; I only teach a kind of religiousness. The world is fed up with all these “isms.”
There are three hundred religions and at least three thousand sub-sects of those religions. The world needs one universal religiousness.
My sannyasins don’t belong to any religion at all, they simply belong to a new phenomenon – a religionless religiousness. The essential of religion, of all the religions, will be saved, but the peripheral will have to be dropped, the nonessential will have to be simply burned.
The nonessential has grown too much in Hinduism, it is ninety-nine percent nonessential. And the same is true about other religions too, more or less, because Hinduism is the oldest one. Christianity is only two thousand years old, Mohammedanism only fourteen hundred years old, Sikhism only five hundred years old – of course, they are not that old so they have a little more life. But Hinduism, Jainism are very ancient – Jainism perhaps even older than Hinduism, hence more dead, hence more in the grave, not even on the deathbed, Hinduism is on the deathbed, at least Jainism is already in the grave!
We need a rejuvenation, not of something old but of the essential which is eternal. I call that eternal religiousness, sanatan dharma. Aes dhammo sanantano – the eternal religion. It has nothing to do with Hinduism, it is nontemporal. Meditation is the most significant part of it, and out of meditation, the transformation of your whole character.
I am not against anybody, but I have to say the truth as it is. I cannot compromise – truth is always uncompromising. I cannot be polite either because that politeness will not help. I have to be mercilessly hammering continuously on all that is wrong and all that is ill. Chunk by chunk all the nonessential, ritualistic religion has to be destroyed. When only the essential is left you will see the youngness of it, the freshness of it, the fragrance of it.
And the world is now in a great need because man as he exists now, cannot exist any more. Either he has to commit a global suicide or he has to come out of the past like a snake moving out of the old skin. He has to be reborn.
Only a new man can survive, the old man is incapable of survival in the future. Science has grown so much that unless we bring religion also to the same par, there will be no balance. Religion is lagging far behind and science is growing so speedily every day that if we don’t also bring religion to the present, science and religion cannot meet. And in that meeting is the only hope.
The meeting of science and religion will create the new man, the new synthesis.

The second question:
You have spoken many times about Zen masters, and today you said that J. Krishnamurti is Zen and Zen means no teaching. Can you explain this point?
Zen certainly means no teaching at all, no doctrine. That’s what J. Krishnamurti has been saying for fifty years or more. He never mentions the name Zen, but that does not make any difference; what he says is exactly, essentially the same.
But on one point there is a great difference. Zen says there is no teaching, truth cannot be taught. Nobody can give you the truth, truth has to be discovered within your own soul. It cannot be borrowed from the scriptures. It is not possible even to communicate it, it is inexpressible; by its very nature, intrinsically, it is indefinable. Truth happens to you in a wordless silence, in deep, deep meditation. When there is no thought, no desire, no ambition, in that state of no-mind truth descends in you – or ascends in you. As far as the dimension of truth is concerned both are the same because in the world of the innermost subjectivity, height and depth mean the same. It is one dimension, the vertical dimension.
The mind moves horizontally, no-mind exists vertically. The moment the mind ceases to function – that’s what meditation is all about, cessation of the mind; total cessation of the mind – your consciousness becomes vertical, depth and height are yours.
So either you can say truth descends, as many mystics like Patanjali, Badarayana, Kapil and Kanad have said. It is avataran – coming from the heights to you. Hence whenever a person becomes self-realized he is called an avatar. Avatar means truth has descended in him. The word avatar simply means descending from the above, from the beyond.
But the other expression is as valid. Adinatha, Neminatha, Mahavira, Gautam Buddha, these mystics have said that truth does not come from the beyond, it arises from the deepest source of your being. It is not something coming down but something rising up, welling up.
Both expressions are valid to me, two ways of saying the same thing – that the dimension is vertical. Either you can talk in terms of height, or in terms of depth. But truth never comes from the outside, so nobody can teach you.
As far as this point is concerned, Krishnamurti is absolutely Zen. Truth cannot be taught, cannot be transmitted. Zen masters – Bodhidharma, Lin Chi, Bokuju, Basho – they have all been emphasizing one point, that Zen is transmission beyond scriptures, beyond words. On this point J. Krishnamurti is in absolute agreement with Zen.
But there is one more thing in Zen which is missing in J. Krishnamurti, and because of that he has utterly failed. He could have been of great help and upliftment to humanity, but he has utterly failed. In fact, I don’t know another name in the whole history of humanity who has so utterly failed as J. Krishnamurti. No other enlightened person has been such a failure. The other thing that is missing is the cause. It is a little bit delicate and you will have to be very attentive about it.
Zen says truth cannot be transmitted, hence it can only happen in a master–disciple relationship. It cannot be taught so there is no question of a relationship between the teacher and the taught – because there is no teaching so there is no teacher and no taught. But it is a transmission. Transmission means heart to heart: teaching means head to head.
When the disciple and the master meet, merge, melt into each other, it is a love affair. It is a deep, orgasmic experience, far deeper than any love because even lovers go on carrying their egos and egos are bound to clash, conflict. The master and the disciple exist without egos. The master’s ego has evaporated – that’s why he is a master – and the disciple surrenders his ego to the master.
Remember, by surrendering the ego, the disciple is not surrendering anything in particular because the ego is just an idea and nothing else. It has no substance, it is made of the same stuff dreams are made of. When you surrender your dreams, what are you surrendering?
If you come to me and you say, “I offer all my dreams to you,” you are offering, but I am not getting anything. You may be thinking that you are offering great dreams of golden palaces and beautiful women and great treasures; you are offering great dreams, but I am not getting anything.
When you offer your ego to the master you are offering something as far as you are concerned because you think it is very substantial, very significant. When you surrender you think you are doing something great. As far as the master is concerned he is simply laughing at the whole thing because he knows what your ego is – just hot air, nothing much to brag about!
But a device, a simple device, can help immensely. It is a device. The master says, “Surrender the ego.” When he says, “Surrender the ego,” he is saying, “Give me that which you don’t have at all, but you believe that you have. Give me your belief – I am ready to take it. Let this excuse help you.” You may not be able to drop it on your own, but in love with the master you may be able, you may gather courage to risk. Love encourages you to risk. In love you can go to any lengths. When you are in love with the master and he says, “Give me your ego,” how can you say no?
To be with a master means in a state of saying yes, yes, and again yes! It is an absolute yes, unconditional yes. So when he says, “Give me your ego,” you simply give your ego to the master. To you it is very important; to him it has no meaning, no substance, no existence, but he accepts it.
The moment you drop your ego, the meeting starts happening. Now two zeros start moving into each other. Two lovers enter each other’s bodies, that is a physical phenomenon and the orgasm that happens is a physical thing. The master and the disciple are lovers of the spiritual plane: two zeros, two egoless beings enter each other. In that merger something is transpired. Not that the master gives you something, not that you take something, but because of the meeting something happens, out of the meeting something happens – something which is greater than the master and greater than the disciple, something more than the meeting of these two, something transcendental.
That part is missing in Krishnamurti. He says truth cannot be taught, but he has missed the other point. Yes, it cannot be taught, but he is a logical person and that is his problem. He is trying to put his enlightenment very logically, he does not want to bring any illogicality in it, any paradox in it.
Now, Zen people don’t bother about logic, they live the ultimate paradox. They go on saying there is no teaching, and truth cannot be taught. And still Zen masters are there, and Zen disciples are there. People have raised questions, skeptical people have always raised questions: “What is this? On the one hand you say truth cannot be taught, and on the other hand why do you initiate, why do you accept people?”
The Zen masters have always laughed because this paradox cannot be explained. If you want to really know it, you have to become a disciple, you have to become a participant, you have to become part of the mystery; only then will you have the taste of it. It is a taste, no explanation can help. If you have tasted sugar you know it is sweet, but no explanation can give you the idea of sweetness. If you have seen light you know what it is, but to the blind man you cannot explain, it is utterly futile.
Zen masters have never bothered, hence their statements are very paradoxical.

One Zen master, Ikkyu, was staying in a temple, just an overnight stay, but it was a cold night and he was shivering. In the middle of the night he got up and found one of Buddha’s statues, a wooden statue, and burned it, and was very happy with the fire and the warmth.
The priest of the temple, seeing the light and the fire inside the temple, could not believe what was happening. He was a little suspicious when he had allowed this Ikkyu to stay for the night in the temple, but he had not thought that he would do such a thing. “He will set the whole temple on fire!” He rushed in and he found he had burned one of the most beautiful statues of the Buddha. And he was of course angry, and he shouted at Ikkyu, “What you have done? And you think you are a Buddhist? And you are wearing the yellow robes of the Buddhist monk! And I have even heard that not only are you a Buddhist monk, you are a great master and you have many followers! And what have you done?” The statue was completely burned.
Ikkyu took his staff and started searching in the ashes for something. The priest asked, “What are you looking for?”
He said, “I am looking for Buddha’s bones.”
In the East we call the bones flowers. When a man dies we collect his bones after the body is completely burned. Those bones are called flowers.
So he said, “I am looking for Buddha’s flowers.”
Even the priest could not resist laughing. He said, “You are crazy! How can you find flowers in a wooden statue?”
Now it was the turn of Ikkyu to laugh, and he laughed and he said, “Then you are not so stupid as I thought! Bring… There are two more statues in the temple and it is still a long night. Why don’t you also join? It is so warm, and we will also burn those two other statues; when there are no bones in it, certainly it is not a real Buddha – just wood.”
The priest became so afraid of this madman he threw him out. It was dangerous to keep him inside the temple – he may burn the other two statues! The temple only had three statues.
In the morning when the priest opened the doors he saw Ikkyu bowing down in front of the temple before a milestone. He had put a few flowers – must have gathered some wild flowers – he had put those flowers on the milestone and was doing his morning prayers and meditations. He was repeating the famous Buddhist mantra: “Buddham sharanam gachchhami – I go to the feet of the master, Buddha. Sangham sharanam gachchhami – I go to the feet of the commune of my master. Dhammam sharanam gachchhami – I go to the feet of the ultimate truth that my master realized.”
The priest came, shook him and said, “What are you doing? You are really absolutely mad! This is a milestone, this is not Buddha! You have burned a Buddha statue in the night, and now before a milestone you are doing your prayers and saying, ‘Buddham sharanam gachchhami, sangham sharanam gachchhami, dhammam sharanam gachchhami?’”
Ikkyu said, “It is not a question whether it is a statue or not, the question is my heart. It is morning time. I am doing my prayer. Any excuse will do. In the night I burned one excuse – that was only an excuse, it was not Buddha. This is another excuse, and this is far simpler because I can find the milestone anywhere. I need not be dependent on any temple, on any statue.”
The priest said, “You are very illogical!”

And that’s what has been told to the Zen masters down the ages – since the days of Mahakashyap, the first Zen master, the first Patriarch, it has been again and again said that, “You are paradoxical. On the one hand you deny that there is no teaching, on the other hand you become disciples, masters. On the one hand you say there is no prayer, on the other hand you pray to Buddha.”
You have to be very, very alert to understand the paradox. The prayer has to be out of your overflowing love, it has nothing to do with the statue or the stone. Those are just excuses. Buddha is everywhere – to Buddhists, Buddha means God. The stone is as much Buddha as the statue. The whole existence is full of buddhahood, godliness, and the master has experienced it.
The disciple accepts the master so that he can come closer to him. In saying yes to the master he becomes attuned with the master. The word attunement is beautiful it means at-onement. He becomes one with the master. In that oneness something that cannot be given through words is transpired through the being – something like bringing an unlit candle close to a lit candle. There is a certain point when the unlit candle comes within that limit – suddenly the flame from the lit candle jumps into the unlit candle. The lit candle loses nothing at all, but the unlit candle gains infinitely.
Now the reverse process is happening, when the disciple comes to the master he gives his ego and thinks he is losing much – and the master gets nothing. When the master gives something he gives infinitely, he gives his light, but he loses nothing, his light remains the same. From one lit candle you can light millions of candles, and the lit candle loses nothing at all, although the unlit candles gain infinitely.
This point is missing in J. Krishnamurti, hence whatsoever he is saying is Zen, but he is not doing Zen – saying but not doing.
I am saying and doing both, and only doing can bring fulfillment, flowering. Just saying is not going to help. Whether you say positively something about truth, or you say something negative about truth, it is useless. Even saying that truth cannot be told is meaningless. What is the point saying again and again for fifty years that truth cannot be told? Then why bother? Say once, “Truth cannot be told,” and every day repeat “Ditto!” That’s enough! And go home. There is no point in saying it again and again, unless by saying it you are encouraging the people toward some other phenomenon.
Truth cannot be said – this is one part. The second part is: but truth can be transpired. It can be shared, not told but shared. And for that sharing the love affair of the disciple and the master is a must; without it, it is not possible.

The last question:
What do you have up your sleeve?
Nothing much, just few jokes for you! The first:

A man who had lost all his money at the gambling tables in Las Vegas begged a dime from another patron to use the men’s room. One of the stalls was not locked, so he saved the dime, and then used it to play a slot machine. Luckily he hit the jackpot.
With the money he tried another machine, and again he won. Fortune continued to smile on him as he went and played the crap tables and roulette wheels, running his winnings up to a million dollars.
He told his extraordinary story all over Las Vegas – at bars and parties. Always expressing gratitude to his benefactor, he said he would split the million with him. After several weeks, among a group of men at a bar, one of them exclaimed, “I am the man who gave you the dime!”
“I am not looking for you,” the lucky man answered. “I am looking for the guy who left the door open!”

The second:

Jim Smith ran into an old friend on the street who was sporting two black eyes. After greeting each other, Jim asked, “Say, where did you get those shiners?”
“At church,” was his friend’s reply.
“How?” Jim asked, somewhat astonished.
“Well,” began his friend, “I was sitting behind a big fat lady in church. When she stood up I noticed her dress was caught in the crack of her butt. I reached over and pulled it out and she turned around and socked me in the eye!”
“Wow!” said Jim, amazed. “But how did the other eye get black?”
Sighing, his friend said, “When I realized that she did not like what I had done, I put it back!”

And the third:

Johnny the Sperm and all his little friends were preparing for their big thrust out into the world. They were exercising and building up their strength. Johnny said to the other sperms, “Listen, fellows, I want to be number one – I want to be the first to become a human being!”
They were all hanging around when suddenly the bells of Jerusalem rang, “Gong! Gong! Gong!” Johnny took the lead – he was number one, but suddenly all the other sperms saw him turn around and start racing back toward them.
‘Hey, Johnny!” they yelled. “What’s wrong?”
“False alarm, boys,” Johnny called out to them. “It’s a blow job!”

Enough for today.

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