This letter I have written to Keerti as he and others, will try to do something about Buddha Hall being taken apart. But I also want to send this letter to the people in the Resort who are deciding over these matters, as if the rest of us, are not to be taken in account at all. And I also send this to my friends around the world, and those here in Pune, who might want to read this as well.
With love *Ghoshana*
Beloved Keerti,
Fellow traveller on this road with the Master,
What I feel when I see and hear about Buddha Hall being taken down after the opening of the auditorium, is deep sadness and my heart is aching. I do not understand the reason behind taking it down, and I cannot see it has to be done. The two could coexist, the two could be one. The administration says it's because of some legal problems and that the
roof was illegal. It has been so since it came up, it could be so for longer.
Buddha Hall is my 'birthplace', is where I found my true self and the joy of being, is where I met Osho first time, back in 1989.Not long before the beloved left His body, and then was taken to Buddha Hall for us to be with before His last journey. Buddha Hall has the energy of our beloved Master, has given birth to so many people, through His grace, has contained so many death celebrations too of His people as well as His own body.
Has His whole energy and wisdom impregnated into each piece and part of the floor, the podium, the bamboos and trees around, the very soil of the earth it's standing on.
If Buddha's Bodhi tree could be saved over thousands of years, why cannot we the
Sannyasins today, save our beloved Buddha hall from coming down and being taken
apart???
The question Why? wakes me up every morning, I look and I cannot find a true answer. Can you? Can you tell me how and why this has to be? Can you tell me if we are
not many enough to stop the ones that have the idea that this is the way to go about Osho's 'vision'?
I sincerely hope that through the efforts of many of us, and of yours Keerti, we will be able to save Buddha Hall. To me Buddha Hall is very much a 'female' energy, something that stands for my Master's "Way of the White Cloud" and all His love and wisdom. "She' is the shelter and the center of the ashram, or today called 'resort'," she" is the point around which all energy and all joy, and sadness, can still whirl and welcome more people, show them the way to the heart, show them the way "In", to rediscovering their true selves, to their own light.
The new building, the Osho Auditorium, is to me a monument over a new face, a new
time in the world of Osho's. It is also a very 'male' representation, very solid, non transparent, it stands in a setting that has no rounded lines, only straight and dark outlining. It can be seen as esthetical and even beautiful. And yet, to me there is certain coldness to it, inside and outside. It's marble and stones will never have the quality and contain the energy of the Master's as such. He has not entered there in body, He has not greeted us with His Namaste's in there day eater day, evening after evening. He has not sat there for hours, talking to us from the depths of the source.
Yes, I know too, that He is dissolved in each and everyone of us who truly loved Him, since He left the body. Yes, I know, and live Him every moment of my life. Just 'as is', very ordinarily going about my daily life here in Pune since three years now. Yet, I also know that my heart aches, because there is a betrayal of the heart, and of the female qualities that our Master so delicately always embodied. All masters have done, will do.
If Buddha Hall is ripped apart, we are missing something essential, we are going
astray, my heart tells me, and I have learned from Him, to 'just follow my heart'.
That is why I am trying to express what is in 'here now', a deep ache, a deep sadness that this is happening, this very moment. I urge you all, who are feeling the same or similar, to write to Keerti, or write to the team in the commune who are deciding about this. And join in the quest for Buddha Hall standing where she is meant to stand! And we have to act now, the work of taking 'her' apart, has reached the podiums roof, and the work is continuing fast. I have not been in to watch this myself, but friends who are there, tells me what is happening. Many feel like I do, and many are afraid to stand up and tell the responsible for this, what we truly feel.
I do not know why we are so afraid, what is there to fear? Who is there to fear?
Perhaps Buddha Hall cannot be saved, perhaps it has gone much too far already? But at least I can save myself from being compliant with what is happening. Not saying what I feel is somehow the same thing as to agree. And I am not agreeing with this.
I request that Buddha Hall be left in her glory, that the roof is built up again, maybe in a different way, that Buddha Hall be the place where all of us that loves Osho can come and sit and dance, and just be. In the center of the commune, where it used to be as the heart of the whole place. The 'new' and the 'old' can stand side by side, there is no need for destroying what is still alive and vibrating and will be so with our care, forever.
It just comes as a flash, when I'm writing this, images from some time back, when
the Taliban in Afghanistan destroyed the huge Buddha statues. Bombed them apart
like they had no value, like they were 'misfits' in their 'universe'. These statues too were created in reverence and gratitude to the Buddha of those times. We have been living with Him as the Buddha of our times, yes, He is, and always was outrageous. Contradicting Himself in every possible way. So that we would not be able to build another religion, or another anti-religion, on His "Wisdom of the Sands".
Buddha Hall was built in His honour and in gratitude of His being with us. Was
built for us all to be reborn in together with Him, in silence and in dance, in
celebrating life and death. Do we have the right to destroy this? Do we have the
heart to say nothing when this is happening?
Please, hear my words, please look into your hearts and please look again for
another solution than breaking Buddha Hall apart. In love and gratitude for all that has been given and all that is always showering His blessings.
Sincerely your friend,
*Sunder Ghoshana*
(My name that was given in Sept.-89, meaning: Declaration of Beauty.)
ghoshana@hotmail.com
